Why I'm Staying Sober

It took me a lot of rock bottoms before I decided to gets sober. I knew I had a drinking problem long before I got help for it. I had accepted that I was an alcoholic, but instead of doing something about it, I had resigned to being a miserable drunk for the rest of what I thought would be a short life. Something changed when I went to treatment and started entering the rooms, I realized that I wasn't the only person who felt that way. Moreover, I realized that while there's no cure for my affliction, there is a solution. I saw happy successful sober alcoholics and I wanted what they had. Below are some reasons I never want to go back to the way I was living my life before.

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I don't want to...

1. Embarrass myself anymore

2. Black out anymore, no matter how miserable the current situation I'm in feels

3. Give up my hard work

4. Feel the disappointment, guilt and shame of a relapse

5. Get cut off financially

6. Lose the trust I've rebuilt

7. Have to start my clean date over

8. Get arrested again

9. Go back to treatment

10. Lose control of my thoughts, feelings and actions

11. Give in or give up

12. Lose the belief that I have in myself

13. Disappoint and betray the sober friends I've made

14. Hit another rock bottom

15. Feel so alone and isolated again

16. Feel helpless

17. Say and do crude, cruel and mean things

18. Steal

19. Lie

20. Lose the opportunity to go back to school and graduate

21. Spend all my hard earned money

22. Prove to people that they were right and I was a hopeless, bad and mean drunk

23. Be another number or statistic

24. Live a life I feel I have to escape from

What are your reasons you won't go back? What have you developed in your sobriety that isn't worth losing?